Jun 20 2008
ngilu
it has been a while…. but right now i just to do some luahan rasa… to let it out, if not all, a small fraction of this ever growing regret im feeling..
im sad… so sad… i wish i can turn back time & undo all the stupid things ive done.. all the stupid words i uttered…
that is IF i can turn back time. But, i know no I just CANT.
honestly, i dont know what to do when things like this happen. I know its all my fault. Should I just sit still & let time heal all the hurt ive caused? No. Yet, i dont know what to do. Seriously. And im afraid, if I do something, anything, it will seems like im pushing it some more, a lot more. But i just cant sit still. Theres this feeling i have inside me that i just cant ignore. Its a mixture of regrets, love, sadness, fear & anger.
I just wish i know what to do now.. But the more i think about it, the bigger regret i feel…. the more angry I am with.. me.
