::: chiccoyanee : inside my head :::

nice day, very very nice… sampai hajat… had lots of fun w geng geng selam d pelumpong… improved skin dive… ate lots of nasi lemak (bought d muara.. just a reminder for myself..next time bli sana lagi…) kaki blister, fin bruku pkai karas… mask befog… but nothing can stop me hehe… looking 4ward to the next seatrip, hopefully ke bluewater… wreck!

im mentally, physically & especially, emotionally exhausted. went ke laut, kn dive kononnya. but i end up, duduk d boat sja, shivering & mabuk laut! hujan nda beranti.. n the sea sangat beombak, 3 ke 4 metre high! worst condition ive ever experience so far but syukurtah, kami balik dengan selamat..

now i know the feeling of mabuk laut, very inda nyaman! dtmbh lagi dengan hujan, n waves yg tinggi. how i wish, aku bleh awal atu jua, by apa cara sekali pun. dgn boatnya yg antak2 lagi. confirm for tye next few days, starting from tomorrow sakit badan ni. i dont like the boat, kuat antaknya. im not sure, whether it was the boat atau driver nda mahir, yg membari kuat antaknya. i forced myself to sleep supaya nda terasa lamanya, nada mau nak. i just stayed calm, menenangkn diri sendiri, urg becali pun nda ku mampu senyum.

was it the green tea? biasanya i drink 100plusoren, p sal minuman bergas can affect descent (its in the book, somewhere..), mbali green tea tah ku. i guess, no more green tea next time!

overall, it was a good xperience. bleh consider worst-case scenario, hopefully! klu ada yg lebih dari atu, hmmm diving d swimming pool tahku saja tu! hehe

wednesday, cwdive jpmc, mlapas gian! woooohooo!

today friday… 1618hr… d opis…. n its gonna rain soon… cancel shooting ni confirm….

aku kana saman… boring…. with $50 i can do a lot of things…

byr utk diving….
10 kunjungan ke cb….
tiket labuan….
steam rambut…
byr bil talipun….
liat wayang berkali kali….
bali buku (yang balum ku smpai cari..)….
tambah $5, jetskiing sejam….
tmbah $10, bleh buat dua kali aromatherapy massage…
byr insuranku….
renew passport ku yg kan mansuh rupanya….
bali adiah adiku, June11 nda lagi batah…
bali waterproof bag yg malar ku liat2 atu….
membayar kaling mutung rumput, belabih lagi tu…..
tambah sedikit, parfum sebutul……
byr diving courseku….
pesta ambuyat…..
50 bungkus nasi katok jerudong….
belanja kawan kwan ku (bilaaaaaa jua hehe)…..
baras 4 guni…..
gula pun 4 guni…..
minyak makan be litre litre…..
minyak kreta be litre litre jua…..
saving… (bilaaaaa juaaa)…..
S&S sepuluh kunjungan…..
be piring piring shake….
menambah utk bali mask&snorkel…….
be packet packet mentos gum orange…..
RD utk 5 bulan………………..

aaahhhh banyak barang bleh ku buat. mcm sudah berkali kali ku parking d parking lot kedutaan XXXXXXX (d bndr, krg kedapatan hehe), even my frens pun parking sana, aku jua yang kana!

anyway, relakan aja, nda jua dpt buat apapa lagi… boringgggg….

just a short one this time… iklan sekajap… seblum sambung kerja…..

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itupun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati..
Wooo
( Begitu engkaulah; cinta sejati )

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

am i tat seloh? i mean lambat loading? i think i am. after kejadian semlm, now i realise betapa selownya akuuuu~~

nothing much to share ganya xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx[censored.. utk keselamatan diri!] (next time terus terang, hint2 nda masuk beb!)

all the way home, been having a serious thinking on trust. on to wat extend can i trust ppl now. n also now im having doubts on ppls sincerity. esp on this one particular person, very pintar ah. i must be more careful next time. if there is a “next time” jua. nada kali lah, im sooo going to be in a “ah sorry aku jln daleng” mode with xxxxxxx now. it was a good lesson to learn though. thank you very much. i mean it.

aku mauuuu diveeee!!! rindu ku rasanya. i miss the smell of the sea. n the mixed smell of nasi lemak + the sea (a must eat everytime sbelum turun). maybe next sunday tah (hopefully!!), lupa contact semlm.

i got 3 days off. huga huga! i love my bosses, so kind! semoga bahagia selalu! krg lah ku menyusun agendas utk off ani hehe..

antaranya maybe…
1. panyap bilik (utk sekian kalinya nda sampai2)
2. just sleep (how xciting!!!)
3. drive around brunei, xploring! maybe menyebalah a bit, or maybe now i can go to kerangan d temburong again! ill give it a tot lagi krg
4. santai d yc serasa~~
5. spend time with my sister, lama nggak ngobrol. kesian ia, ive been bz saja…
6. da vinci code! i must read it. well, ill try lah. i prefer mliat movienya plng. but since a fren claimed it as a “hard to put down” book, i will give it a try. krg singgah arah aming.
7. woksyop! arggghh malas!
8. netball
9. shushi! shake!
10. meronda kadai buku, cari Domestic Goddess
11. jumpa dentist??
12. watch movie, yg psl calls, forgot the title
13. foot spa
14. survey kadai scuba d gadong
15. baca buku PADI. aming & diana joined! 4 urg sudah gang bang! ih i mean gang selam, Mary Milin Aming Diana! meriah ni ke laut! awu iatah theyre reading the book cover to cover. honestly aku baca mcm 1/5 of the book saja hehehe n i got license oredi…(i passed the xm ah, jgn tuduh yg bukan bukann sister) bah awu membaca tah ku ni, krg bawa ke serasa. klu ku ingat.
16. paling2 ke ofis, cari kraja klu i feel like it (im not a workaholic, seriously. ndaaaa mana ada ku kn kraja sajaaaaa. banar indaaaa)

ok sampai d sini tah saja. gonna get some more sleep. need to. sakit kapla ku jua.

Apanah…
“three is a crowd” - i have to agree!!

finally having my americano! been a while nda masuk ke sini. so far may is great, though ada yg few sedihing incidents and menyasakkan as well, but aku redha (muahahahaha!)

acara kemuncak was rossa! n the early morning dip in the pool! great voice! nda nyasal ganya i was sitting dekat2 ibu2 yg dtg bersama kluarga2 mereka. teraaaaaanah banar. not even clapping their hands. tapi now i know sudah which zone yg paling bisai.

projek pop were hilirious. hajat kn chow awal sal adda anotyher event to attend. smpai abis jua mliat hehe

abis sana begagas ke lokasi lain with diferent type of excitement. ok lah (hehe no offence mary, but i was haunted by flashes of some images).
but im looking forward to any klu ada dlm waktu terdekat! yacht club?

n the fun went on samapai ke pagi wiith a dip d pool, watched sunrise (err sort of) atas batu2. the angin was nice d pagi hari rupanya! n on n on!

been on a kapal perang! very interesting!

rakaman studio went well, n salasai sudah! woohooo!

had a closer look on skulls!

ronda2 kota batu, very historic place.

bah adangtah, ndaku ingat lagi. just looking forward for tomorrow, cockpit visit n jazz concert! asikkkkk

I’ve been alone with you
Inside my mind
And in my dreams I’ve kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you
Pass outside my door
Hello!
Is it me you’re looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You’re all I’ve ever wanted
And my arms are open wide
Because you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much
I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello!
I’ve just got to let you know
Because I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven’t got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

Hello!
Is it me you’re looking for?
Becuase I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven’t got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you