::: chiccoyanee : inside my head :::

Welcome May!

When u dont see something, doesnt mean its not there. Hehe tarus tarus.. Macam angin kan, can u see it? but u can feel it. same goes with love, can u see it? well, ada plng tanda tanda nya i.e. senyum senyum sorang. come to think of it, love is not an object, hence cannot be seen. unless when we talk about, the making of it, nampak plang hehehe seen some d pantai jerudong (get a room people!)

………….. nah i lost word…… maybe next time tah lagi, sleepy oredi.

before i forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!! a.k.a. EMAO TAMAO! http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=1186007

semoga bergumbira selalu! hope u like ur present hehe..

….may May (eheee) will bring flowing happiness, lessen the pain of missing thee & cure my heart from the unnecessary longings….

Love is my sin, and thy dear virtue hate,
Hate of my sin, grounded on sinful loving,
O, but with mine, compare thou thine own state,
And thou shalt find it merits not reproving,
Or if it do, not from those lips of thine
That have profaned their scarlet ornaments
And sealed false bonds of love as oft as mine,
Robbed others’ beds’ revenues of their rents.
Be it lawful I love thee as thou lov’st those
Whom thine eyes woo as mine importune thee.
Root pity in thy heart, that when it grows
Thy pity may deserve to pitied be.
If thou dost seek to have what thou dost hide,
By self-example mayst thou be denied!

hola!

been meaning kan masuk ke sini p nada kesempatan. Todays thursday. 4 hari yang lalu i did wreck diving!!! it was sooo so so so.. apa ah. cant find a word for it. i went diving ke australian wreck, basar amat kapalnya. this time baru tah sah 33 metres, not feet hehe…

i went with my dive instructor, Cek li, Uwais (his 9 year old boy), Mary and Linda (whom I just met). Mula2 we werent sure of where to dive, it was either Australian or American wreck. sikit lagi kan turun di American, p buoynya missing. iatah ke australian wreck tah kami.

Among kami 5, aku tah yg paling baru, n it was my first time deep dive. dlm sekali! batah kan sampai kebawah! dh sampai ke bahagian atas, wahhh…! so kami raun2 tah, masuk ke dlm, kluar balik. guess apa yg kami jumpa… manta ray!  huge! lebarnya labih 2 metre kali! so main main sama manta ray atu, ikut ikut ia pusing2.

i used up my air more than usual pasal aku te kajut tekajut, n frankly, barutah ku pernah rasa takut masa diving. hehe takutku ada shark! palui jua tu, mun ada, yg lain pakar banar, aku yg ketinggalan tu krg! hehe.. anyway, i ran out of air! n i panicked! teminum ku air sikit. nasib baik buddy ku ampir, so i just shared air with ia.

all the way ascending, aku takut.. imaginku mcm mcm.. klu ada shark, payah jua ku kn lari tu, bepaut arah buddy atu. baik jua nada hehe.. naik bot, tarus tah kami ke pilong2 lagi. i cannot dive lagi tat day, pasal nada buat safety stop. aku main2 saja d surface! snorkeling.. i just love the sea! damai sekali!

sorry.. correction.. not metres… semua in feet saja….

klu baca blog ani yg previous previous, tau kali wat i meant by tat. manalah ku tau.. ive doublechecked with a fren, nya “…awu 30 metre tu…” or maybe i was not really listening, biasa easily distracted by any distraction.. of any kind… all along nyangku 30m, 45m.. manalah ku tau.. namanya jua urg baru, “naive”.. haha

ah anyway, i worked tadi. i know. sunday. Tapi kerja tetap kerja. gpun dah cuti sa friday. spent it well in bed, bayar tidur! i did something somewhere tadi (me being secretive here, layan saja tah). hectic jua. im sooooo not good in entertaining ppl.. apalagi crowd.. hence not good in public speaking. but after experience tadi, i think i did ok lah. “candu” is the term used by “members” to define it (dont get me wrong, i have nothing against them. infact i think theyre fun to be with, seriously!). maybe bcos i liked wat i did. selesa… yup, tats the word! all i need is some more (if not lots of) practice, hands-on.

yesterday, april 1st. had a good start for another good month =) spent some time with my cuzin n friends. siuk jua, lama dah nda hang out sama sama, eyewashing. tapi di dlaam kegumbbiraan kami, something happened to our friend elsewhere. inda payah cerita detailsnya, pokoknya, where ever u go, if ure alone in ur car, LOCK UP UR DOORS. maniacs bejurit udah, desperate ppl do the unexpected.

Btw thanks to c joy for inviting us (well i didnt know about it, till mlm, but i did go, so..) to an event tat deserved a”WoW!” siuk banar! banar banar! i wonder if i can find friendster nya somehow, hopefully klu ada jua. Pasal frequency kami more or less the same, iatah bisai klu ada any upcoming event, ill be well informed hehe

who needs more sleep when u just had 27 (straight, kemarin plang) hrs of sleep? so here i am. still wide awake. just got back, from somewhere, kes emergency, but what are friends for kan. i dont mind, anytime (kecuali masa ku kraja or tidur) life memang ada ups and downs nya. bila ups dtg, enjoy them. bila downs come crashing into u, crushing and tearing u down to bits n pieces (metaphorically/literally), u have 3 choices on how to react:
1) redha <<< i cant believe i said tat!
2) let go, with sincerity (in letting go n watever uve done) <<< deep! very!
3) doing both of the abovementioned
yea, i know, easier said than done. but just give it a try. youll be amaze to see resultnya. banar. im just sharing ni, never proven scientifically nor tested on animal.

ok, adangtah krg telabih cerita, bagi ijab. i restrict this blog to, unintentionally, reflect(if any) merely 10% of me. selebihnya ?????? ahhaha

“Love withers with predictability; its very essence is surprise and amazement. To make love a prisoner of the mundane is to take its passion and lose it forever”