::: chiccoyanee : inside my head :::

kembali di sini.. its 0036hr, hari selasa dah ni. i went 40m under kemarin!!!!!!

laaaaaaaawaaaa sekali! and the weather was beautiful, the sea was calm… visibility excellent at one spot atu. damai, i tell u!

i went with 5 other divers yang baruku kenal, nice ppl. i saw jelly fish yg jenis apakah tu, scary! panik ku sedikit, aku imagin ia membubut haha! nda jua bah. banyak ikan2 baru ku liat. coral2 nya pun lain sikit dari yg ada arah shallow. lebih bisai, pasal mcm ada ruang2 d lower part nya, ada ikan ikan betapuk. yg lain menyubuk utk meliat dlm nya, p aku nda berani, not yet. nantitah dah ku handal. bukan apa, aku takut ikan atu attack tarus2, krg panik ku, bahaya yo.

back here again! sambil2 meliat my frens bermain cucuk bola, yg sesungguhnya dari dulu balum ku dpt master. nanti tah laghi training, sudah pandai baruku main d kadai.

nows its 0152, kan bangun kul 0615 krg, tebangun kh niii?? harap2 tebangun. gonna go see nemos, mesti sampai ni, mudahan visibilitynya excellent, n nda beombak sanagt! hoping to see whale shark, tapi syg nda smpat bali camera tadi. next week musti ku bali awal..

ah anyway, masa ani im having problem kn bangun pagi! its all coming back to me now.. memang dari dulu ada permasaalahan utk bangun awal. i bought this book, i flipped thru dah sikit2, ada dlmmya formula sedikit utk memotivate diri utk bangun awal. balum lagi tebaca, nnti tah. i envy urg2 yg bleh bangun pagi dgn bisainya, as in once tesadar, bangun tarus. its in the blood kali dah. but mesti ada jln penyelesaiannya ni.

bah okay kn beredar nih. lain kali lagi masuk sini! to alai, happy birthday! haha nda lagi slh aribulan ni. sudah ku masukn dlm reminder this time! enjoy ur day

hola.. here i am again in this early hour of a friday morning! just got connected to the internet via my hp! muahahha urg buat ani dari taun lapas udah, aku baru tah ni. FINALLY!! baru mau ku cuba2, baru tah mencuba banar banar tadi, i can surf internet plang on my pocket pc, p namanya jua "pocket", namit lah. ani baru tah puas ati, menaip pun laju, ani baru siuk be blog blog segala ni. pasal ilham ku biasa timbul d mlm mlm hari n time time cemani. d opis bleh plng, p
1. tempat kerja, buat kerja lah kan.
2. siang aku nada ilham (mlm maybe pasal setelah menjalani sehari of observing things n thinking n thinking n thinking, mlm ani tah dpt di gulung kisah kisah utk satu hari)
3. tempat kerja, buat kerja lah kan (mesti balik balik ni supaya selalu ingat n nda alpa!!)
4. tempat kerja, buat kerja lah kan (sekali lagi, mesti d tekankan ni, untuk keselamatan diri~~)

ah anyway, look at my room. sesungguhnya nada ada urg yg masuk xcept aku. a good thing. pasal, macam kapal pacah. berantakkan! must set 1 day khas utk be panyap2, buang apa yang nda perlu. bukan nada masa, masa tu banyak, tapi banyak sangat aktiviti luar yang dibuat, lately ani, only spend 8 hours or less per day dirumah. 4-5 jam tidur. berapa jam saja ku ada. haha, hendak seribu daya, u might say, ermmmm… penyakit M lagi kuat.. iatah… nda tia teungkayahkan.

ani nda tidur gayanya. lmbt medl upgrade utk messenger. kn jadi cerita, pc ni dari june last yr dah ku ganti motherboardnya, anu bagas melatop, panas… of non-stop onlinenya, anu cerita dulu dulu… iatah ani baru tah ia ni be connect ke internet, segala galatah minta update, upgrade. costly jua membaiki seretu, tmbah sana sini lagi. technician d sana atu (nda payah sabut nama kadainya, kesian jua ia…. uhuk.. sebalah netzone kiulap yg chicken chopnya nyaman… uhuk..!) baru kali, d antamnya sampai ani ada 3 cd/dvd rom drives on ni, power consuming! biar tia, nanti tah mencabut. cakap  sal costly atu, baik plang ku bali mini mac tu seretu, bisai tu barang atu, very very nice, usulnya n isi isian nya. damit lagi. senang d bawa ke mana mana. nanti tah insyaAllah kalau berezki, akan aku beli jua!

Whale shark tesadai d tutong!!! mengapa inda on sunday dkt muara masa ku ada??!! aku mau meliat. macam takut plang ku jua, is it really 12 meter panjang? mun ia mengulum, masuk tarus. tatap. masa ani whale sharks be hijrah, iatah melintas perairan brunei, between march n may. hopefully ia ada lagi next week, on sunday, kawasan laut dekat muara, say around 8 or 9. =)

ok atu saja kali, lain kali lagi ku ke sini!

hola!

back here again! feeling much better now, a bit busy, a lot of things to think of. Which is good for me oso. I dont mind kana bagi kraja banyak sebanyak-banyaknya ni, bagitah. aku rela~~ aku mau kembali seperti dulu~~

march, 14, numerically written as 143. Keeeerapsss. Skip this issue.

but pada anyone yang bdaynya falls today, selamat ulang tahun ya, moga moga diberkati and happy happy selalu~~

ok atu saja, karing ideaku ni. ehehh ani saja saja masuk sini. nanti tah mun ber ilham, ku ke sini lagi!

once, a fren told me, ia bleh relate lagu lagu lama dengan kenangan. even klu ada lagu lagu tema to any movie, ia bleh tekanang balik to movie atu, yang intake lama lama, kacamata basar rambut karibo seluar kambang d bawah.

SUdah ku ingat-ingatkan, banar jua cakap nya tu. but to me, bau bauan labih meninggalkan kesan yang mendalam. i still dont like the smell of lavender. mesti mcm pedih rasanya. hehe adatah ceritanya tu, sungguh pilu!

First thing i notice klu masuk ke mana mana tempat tempat baru, klu baunya pleasent, suka tah ku tu. Same goes to ppl, hehe nda plang suka tarus. ppl says first impression counts. to me, nda jua lah, but first bau bauan does! hhaha.. banar.. kan halnya lagi, bau-bauan or parfum yang familiar can remind me of some long lost friends (… nda plang lost banar, batah nda jumpa saja).

So moral of the story, mestitah maintain bau-bau yang bisai. You dont want bad odours reminds ur friends of you!

…sekadar pengamatan….

ya sukur! finally i did my open water dive yesterday! banar banar fascinating.. the feeling, tidak akan ku lupa sampai bila2.. walaupun visibility nda brapa bisai, masih bleh liat coral2 nya yg indah2, seperti di dalam kaca television.

fear n excitement bercampur baur.. especially masa kn turun, head first! took me a while utk meneruskan. sudah pun first time, be ombak2 lagi. last last turun jua.

as we went down, sakit lagi telinga. p last last cuba cuba, ok balik, so turun lah.. 12m down saja.. raun2 meliat coral.. sama ikan2.. pilong2 is such a beutiful place.. ada batu2… bisai sekali!

lutut luka2 sikit tapi sangat berbaloi. now looking forward to the next one. hehe
anyone berminat, let me know ah. course open for anyone dari semua lapisan umur. hehe iklan sikit, 20% ni!

life is all about choice.. i happen to agree with that statement.. to be happy or to be sad, to give ur fullest effort or to buat sdang2 saja, to forgive or bedendam.. i realise all the latter are kurang sehat and can lead to misery kadang2. normal? yes but why choose to be in misery when u have a choice to be happy? kann ngangku its all about choice.

funny when sometimes we say life is not fair. whenever this phase or moment come by, we shud ask ourselves, am i being fair to myself?

back again here… still have no idea how this blog works, but i just need to write! errr in this case, type!

i always tell myself to live life to the fullest, but now tat im in a arrgggh-wat-to-call-this situation, im so lost. i try to take things rationally, think & act, not the other way around. but now, shud i really think about it? is it worth it? entah! i know i cannot ignore it, i mean the pain is killing me.. act normal? ooh so not me, never was a good pretender, never will be.