::: chiccoyanee : inside my head :::

Tiada beza malam atau pun siang
Payah lena ku menjelma
Sejak kau tiada

Tak menentu fikiran bercelaru
Tiada lain yang teringat
Hanya kenangan denganmu
Bertahun kita menciptanya
Retak hanya sekelip mata

Semuanya berpunca dari kita
Kerna di hati mempunyai
Keegoan sendiri

Tidak sekali pun
Kita nak mengalah
Masing-masing menegakkan benang yang basah

Tidak terniat aku mengungkit semua pemberian
Apatah lagi menarik semula
Sesuatu yang aku ikhlaskan

Bought pink’s cd. liked the previous one better but will keep on listening to it for the good voice she has. pink said i dont believe you. yea, same here. tell me, what were they doing around 9 last night? at that very moment, was the feeling mutual or i was just carried away by the music at R&P? because instead of devouring the pleasure of a great massage, i cried.

I don’t mind it
I don’t mind at all
It’s like you’re the swing set
And I’m the kid that falls
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion’s there
So it’s got to be right
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t mind it
I still don’t mind at all
It’s like one of those bad dreams
When you can’t wake up
It looks like you’ve given up
You’ve had enough
But I want more
No I won’t stop
Because I just know
You’ll come around
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

Just don’t stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don’t mind at all

It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion’s there
So it’s got to be right,
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

so much time to myself. so much hidden faith. so much hurt. with not so much strength.

awu~~ bener~~ ku tak bohong~~

just to share a beautiful lyrics written by a friend.. a song so close to me, the more i listen to it, the more i feel the loneliness, the more i want it to end i try to accept the fact, the more i feel the pain…

Renung malam ku yang indah
Terbias cahaya cerah
Bulan menemani diri
Gelapku menjerat hati

Makin jauh bersembunyi
Kepalsuan menutupi
Walau apa yang berlaku
Ku tetap senyum selalu

Sepi mengundang kesedihan
Derita diiringi senyuman
Ku jalani segala cobaan
Bersama senyuman dalam kegelapan
Takkan ada yang tau….

Lyrics by Milin
Song by Joe M

Get a copy now, d kadai cd siring ca mohamad kiulap. worth every penny! well for me, it does pasal aku suka. not because he’s a friend, pasal aku suka the songs n suaranya jua. those of u liking it too, i tell u, uve got a good taste. to those yang inda suka, just because you never open up your mind and change your perspective of local talents ARE actually talented and you should try to listen and appreciate. Never make any assumptions without even witnessing, for making assumptions is an act of a fool, only stupid people do that. And by the way, for those of you who are anti-local talents/products, just shut the hell up and fuck off!!!

Awu marah.

i will not give up on us
for i know
you are thinking of me
as much as
i am thinking of you

compiden! ntah ih. but i am feeling the i-am-thinking-of-u-eh-you-too-? feeling. just like what we always do…

my hands get all shaky… and cold…

my heart is aching painfully..

if only i can turn back time… but of course i know i cant.

i know, my apologies might not wholly mend the hurt ive caused..

but i do believe that love can cure it over time..

… all i can do now is ask for a another chance, for the very first time.

let us let your heart decide…

theres so many things i want to say.. but i opt to say just these few words… i know i was wrong. i am sorry. and please forgive me….

im suppose to go to a gathering with my friends today. but i dont feel well. well actually, i dont feel im up to some good laughs and not to mention good food just yet. im just afraid i might burst out into tears in the middle of the laughs or something. that is something i would rather experience all by myself… not that i dont want to share… its just a bit complicated.. im not sure people would understand… i dont expect them to understand.. my eyes are soar…

an indescribable sadness